REFLECTIONS ON CHANGE, SPIRITUALITY, BELIEF, FAITH, PRAYER, AND MORE
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Thursday, 3/26/09 - "A SECRET PLACE"
(Kolmanskop, Namibia. Kolmanskop is an abandoned diamond mine near the coast.)
"A SECRET PLACE"
These words are typed on a small square of paper and taped to my bathroom mirror: Humility is perpetual quietness of heart. It is to have no trouble. It is never to be fretted or vexed, or irritable, to wonder at nothing that is done to me, to feel nothing that is done against me. It is to be at rest when nobody praises me, and when I am blamed or despised, it is to have a blessed home in myself where I can go in and shut the door and kneel to my Father in secret and be at peace, as in a deep sea of calmness, when all around and about is seeming trouble. (Author unknown)
Wonderful sentiments, hopes, and dreams.....to never be fretted, vexed, or irritable....to be at peace even when being blamed or unrecognized by others. How are these things possible?
How beautiful to be able to go into myself, shut the mental door, and be at peace with God deep inside. This takes faith and trust and a willingness to suspend useless and detrimental old behaviors in the face of adversity, behaviors such as angry words, using the 'silent treatment', resorting to self-destructive behaviors like overeating, binge shopping, not sleeping. Instead of resorting to these behaviors, to stay quiet and pray.
A SECRET PLACE Hidden recess in my mind Filled with light and warmth and love There glows a place entirely calm Acceptance, trust, and faith I find
All knowing, understanding deep in there Expands the sense of peace - - surrounds Echoes in the heartbeat all around God shares his proof of total care Prayer Girl
(Photo credit: Kolmanskop-Namibia by Chris Gray-ga)
I'm sober in AA since July 5th 1985, and a grateful member of Alanon since November 2004.
I joined the "blogosphere" in September, 2008.
In December 2011 I became a grandmother for the first time and now understand why it's such a big deal. I'm wildly in love again with that little guy.