Dear friends, I hope this post finds you happy, healthy and experiencing joy in your life.
First I want to thank all who have sent me congratulations on my 26th sober anniversary. Hubby has lovingly passed them on. Makes me feel wonderful.
It has been almost 5 months since my last blog. Prayer Girl currently has moved to a new way of spiritual expression. Today it is taking the form of pictures rather than words. With each painting (acrylic) I find another piece of myself that has been searching to express itself. I still love all my blogger friends.
It was war. One person was willing to lose much - financial stability, companionship, deep love from another - all for the sake of doing what they wanted to do. The other was just as willing to give up most precious things in their life for the sake of demanding the other notdo them. As hard as one dug in with insistence that it go their way, just as hard did the other dig in that it go theirs. The intensity of this battle of wills grew till it reached an impasse that neither was able or willing to break. The tug of war between them was futile, exhausting and certain to produce no victors.
When the time was ripe, in an act of grace, God finally whispered in the spirit of one of them, "Just let go of the rope. The moment you let go of the rope everything will fall, the entire situation will simply collapse, blow away like dust on the wind, disappear. When all finally settles, only My Will shall remain."
In that moment of clarity a feeling of intense relief, peace, and serenity blossomed. There was a knowing that truth had been revealed and all would be well. Deeper insights would be found as it was pondered in the heart. The war had ceased to exist.
God alone has all power and God's Will is perfect. All that's necessary is to let go of pride and ego and allow God full reign.
A first Merry Christmas wish for you from - Prayer Girl
(Photo credits: Christmas tree by firstname.lastname@example.org Little Angel girl Praying by Fortunia@deviantart.com Young Monk by Colin Trebble-Kodak picture of the day Sun Run by Alishia Osborn-Kodak picture of the day A Cozy Christmas by email@example.com)
From the beginning of my blog my intention was to carry a message of hope. I wanted to share with others what I learned when I thought I was hopeless. When I hit my bottom in alcoholism I felt I was beyond all help and all possibility of saving. I discovered at that time a little seed of hope I didn't know was possible to have, buried within me, and it brought me through that horrific time.
The hope I discovered in me when God intervened and saved me from my alcoholism has remained with me these 25 years since I got sober. I have been through many difficult times in those years and many wonderful, beautiful times as well.
There are times when our "dirty laundry" overflows the basket of our life. I was taught as a child not to "air the family's dirty laundry". I believe it is very important to air our dirty laundry with trusted friends and helpers God puts in our lives. I think that the adage to not air our laundry "in public" is spiritually sound. It is my belief that if we air our troubles publicly it can interfere with whatever God's will for the situation and those involved in it is.
Right now my dirty laundry basket is overflowing and God is telling me to be very cautious about blogging. First of all, I wish for my blog, if it continues, to be that message of hope in a world where so many experience hopelessness. Second, I do not wish my laundry to spill out publicly and spoil God's plan, whatever that may be.
I may stop blogging for a while. I may stop blogging forever. I am turning this decision over to God. In all things, even when I am filled with fear and anxiety, I try to listen for that still small voice that leads and directs me. That voice is why I posted a Theme Thursday blog last night and about an hour later took it down. This was the blog I needed to post instead.
I need your prayers. Those I love need your prayers.
I'm sober in AA since July 5th 1985, and a grateful member of Alanon since November 2004.
I joined the "blogosphere" in September, 2008.
In December 2011 I became a grandmother for the first time and now understand why it's such a big deal. I'm wildly in love again with that little guy.