Dear friends, I hope this post finds you happy, healthy and experiencing joy in your life.
First I want to thank all who have sent me congratulations on my 26th sober anniversary. Hubby has lovingly passed them on. Makes me feel wonderful.
It has been almost 5 months since my last blog. Prayer Girl currently has moved to a new way of spiritual expression. Today it is taking the form of pictures rather than words. With each painting (acrylic) I find another piece of myself that has been searching to express itself. I still love all my blogger friends.
It was war. One person was willing to lose much - financial stability, companionship, deep love from another - all for the sake of doing what they wanted to do. The other was just as willing to give up most precious things in their life for the sake of demanding the other notdo them. As hard as one dug in with insistence that it go their way, just as hard did the other dig in that it go theirs. The intensity of this battle of wills grew till it reached an impasse that neither was able or willing to break. The tug of war between them was futile, exhausting and certain to produce no victors.
When the time was ripe, in an act of grace, God finally whispered in the spirit of one of them, "Just let go of the rope. The moment you let go of the rope everything will fall, the entire situation will simply collapse, blow away like dust on the wind, disappear. When all finally settles, only My Will shall remain."
In that moment of clarity a feeling of intense relief, peace, and serenity blossomed. There was a knowing that truth had been revealed and all would be well. Deeper insights would be found as it was pondered in the heart. The war had ceased to exist.
God alone has all power and God's Will is perfect. All that's necessary is to let go of pride and ego and allow God full reign.
I'm sober in AA since July 5th 1985, and a grateful member of Alanon since November 2004.
I joined the "blogosphere" in September, 2008.
In December 2011 I became a grandmother for the first time and now understand why it's such a big deal. I'm wildly in love again with that little guy.