Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Wednesday, 4/29/09 - "JUST BEING REAL"


"JUST BEING REAL"

I want to thank Just Be Real for giving me this "Just Being Real" Blog Award.

This award means a great deal to me. Being real is one of the most beautiful and beneficial results of growth through the spiritual programs of Alcoholics Anonymous and Al-Anon.

For a large portion of my life I lived in a fantasyland. Reality was too difficult to deal with so I just denied what was happening. I did not have real feelings and I did not see reality in its true sense.

The AA and Al-Anon programs and the twelve steps allowed me to develop the ability to experience my feelings, identify them, and react appropriately. Today I am able to feel anger, fear, sadness, joy, hope, and a whole gamut of emotions without having to stuff them or twist them into something else.

I also learned how to handle the jumbled thoughts and ideas I had in my mind all the time. I had a very large and loud committee meeting all the time in my head. It drove me crazy. It took me many years, but I finally silenced the committee. I am now able to have more coherent thinking, am able to weigh information more clearly, and I can make decisions that are healthy for me. Now, to me, that is living real.

Being real also means that I more frequently know how to handle situations that used to baffle me. I am able to respond to others even when I feel off-balance. I have learned to allow myself time to think before I open my mouth. Today I know how to "say what I mean", "mean what I say", and I don't "say it mean". This is LIVING REAL.

Again, thanks JUST BE REAL.

Prayer Girl

10 comments:

Steve E. said...

All through your writing I detect an Alanon influence. Amazing how that kind of thing just inserts itself into your life. And it is GOOOOD!
Love,
ME

Just Be Real said...

Amen sista' an award well deserved, thank you for being real!!!

Shadow said...

a beautiful award for a beautiful person!!!

one of my sayings was 'reality sucks' and the other 'ignore a problem long enough and it'll go away'. needless to say, i've learnt the hard way to not say/do that anymore...

Gin said...

Your kind husband directed me to your site. I totally get the committee in your head thing. I just started attending Al-anon meetings so my committee is still alive & kicking, but slowly I am firing them one by one.

Lou said...

You are a real one..a real "sweet" one.

Lisa said...

I can't wait to come back and read your blog. I followed you here through Mama Zen........I thought you where a fellow Catholic just by looking at your profile picture.

From one Cradle Catholic to a new Catholic I must say......."Welcome Home my friend"

Dr.John said...

You have been set free to be who you really are. What a wonderful gift.

James Oh said...

Congratulation to you. I believe your post will benefit lots of people who has not find a way out. Grace and peace to you.

Mama Zen said...

Congratulations on the award!

I love the way you described having a committee in your head. I've never thought of it that way, but it's a perfect description.

Syd said...

You are real for sure. I'm glad that you are here to share your thoughts and life experiences. My committee in my head is pretty quiet these days.