"JUST BEING REAL"
I want to thank Just Be Real for giving me this "Just Being Real" Blog Award.
This award means a great deal to me. Being real is one of the most beautiful and beneficial results of growth through the spiritual programs of Alcoholics Anonymous and Al-Anon.
For a large portion of my life I lived in a fantasyland. Reality was too difficult to deal with so I just denied what was happening. I did not have real feelings and I did not see reality in its true sense.
The AA and Al-Anon programs and the twelve steps allowed me to develop the ability to experience my feelings, identify them, and react appropriately. Today I am able to feel anger, fear, sadness, joy, hope, and a whole gamut of emotions without having to stuff them or twist them into something else.
I also learned how to handle the jumbled thoughts and ideas I had in my mind all the time. I had a very large and loud committee meeting all the time in my head. It drove me crazy. It took me many years, but I finally silenced the committee. I am now able to have more coherent thinking, am able to weigh information more clearly, and I can make decisions that are healthy for me. Now, to me, that is living real.
Being real also means that I more frequently know how to handle situations that used to baffle me. I am able to respond to others even when I feel off-balance. I have learned to allow myself time to think before I open my mouth. Today I know how to "say what I mean", "mean what I say", and I don't "say it mean". This is LIVING REAL.
Again, thanks JUST BE REAL.