REFLECTIONS ON CHANGE, SPIRITUALITY, BELIEF, FAITH, PRAYER, AND MORE
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
Thursday 1/21/10 - "SPARK OF HOPE"
"SPARK OF HOPE"
A blog just would not come. My mind was open, moving, but nothing came. I wanted to blog yesterday about that spark of hope that had no business being in me, but was there when I awoke from my last drunk. I couldn't find the words. Now I have found the words in the following form:
SPARK OF HOPE Only three years - brought three deaths: mental, emotional, spiritual The body disappearing too - like a woman in a vanishing act So quickly like the seven point zero earthquake Leaving behind ruin, destruction and devastation
Liquor robbed her of all inside save her life Left her zombie-like, dancing on her liquid legs Then she would drop and pray No thought, no wish, no expectation of a better day
Left her job, loving wife and mother - all stolen away Could not be saved by doctor, religious, friend or self Filled with despair, self-destruction all around In this gloom a last drunk began, a final plunge into oblivion
Another day - it dawned just like the ones before The morning sun, a knife, cutting into her sodden brain But something new! A sense! A thought! What's there? This could not be. There was no way. But there it was.
A smallest spark of hope as if from nowhere now appearing. How? Unknown! But know she did - somehow - all would be well.
And it was! Prayer Girl (Photo credit: Flowing by firstname.lastname@example.org)
I'm sober in AA since July 5th 1985, and a grateful member of Alanon since November 2004.
I joined the "blogosphere" in September, 2008.
In December 2011 I became a grandmother for the first time and now understand why it's such a big deal. I'm wildly in love again with that little guy.