Sunday, December 6, 2009



Alcoholics Anonymous and Al-Anon broke my denial and I faced all the painful truths about myself - my fears, the lies I told myself and others, the flaws in my thinking and behavior. The 1st, 2nd, and 3rd steps prepared me to do this and the 4th and 5th allowed me to become free. The 6th, 7th, 8th, and 9th provided the action needed to clean up the wreckage of my life. Steps 10, 11, and 12 help me stay free.

So - - - today I am not trapped in that negative past and can choose to recall happy memories rather than dwelling in negative ones.

I remember and cherish loving, happy Christmases and beautiful trees of a past time. I don't regret any that may not have been as sweet. This is an example of the promises at work. "We will not regret the past nor wish to shut the door on it." (Promises, Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous)

I can open a door of joyful memory if I choose. I remember my childhood. I have uncovered many hurts of my childhood, but there are many beautiful memories too. I remember my father swimming out into the ocean at Martha's Vineyard to save my whale shaped inflatable floaty. I was so young that in my little baby eyes, he was swimming to China just for me, to save something that was mine. In that moment, he was "my hero". I have never forgotten it.

I remember the first home we bought. My son was a very young. I had a bicycle with a baby seat affixed to the back. We bicycled up and down the hills in our residential neighborhood, son perched safely behind me. For some reason, that is a memory that makes me feel so good.

I remember my daughter maybe 15 years later, age 5, singing into a pole shaped sprinkler in our backyard, putting on a concert for me. She sang her heart out and that sprinkler was the perfect microphone.

I reserve the right to continue this blog at another time to include other happy memories. I am running out of time now.

God bless all my blogger friends.

Prayer Girl


Madison said...

All in all, a very good life.

sarah said...

these are great feel good memories PG. Thank you for sharing them. Sarah

moses said...

Thanks for sharing..God bless!

wolfie185 said...

Thanks for sharing your wonderful memories.

Peace and Love

Andrea said...

I, too am choosing "happy" memories. Thank you for reminding me how important it is to choose to live in the positives and not the negatives.

Anonymous said...

So nice to see you share the happy memories ~ I try to recall mine as often as I can. Some days are better than others. You give strength and hope to this newly sober AA. Thank you for that.


Laying Bare My Truths

Wanda's Wings said...

This post was so up lifting,

otin said...

Good that you reserved the right to add more, because there are always more good memories to add. Some of them may have not happened yet.

Tall Kay said...

You can post happy memories every single day if you want! I loved to read them. Right now my happy memories are making me sad...maybe I need to change my focus from what I don't have, to what I do have. Gratitude may just change those feelings! Thanks for the reminder that I have choices today.

enchantedoak said...

Precious choices, the gift of the Steps, leading us upward and out of the wreckage of those lives of ours. I had a long talk with my big brother this weekend about happy memories, versus those sad ones. Choices, and forgiveness, and acceptance, are the solution today. All accompanied by a healthy dose of prayer. Thanks, PG for helping me directly to accomplish some of this.

Syd said...

I like to pick out the happy memories but often the sad ones overshadow. I have choices though and make those happy memories today to be stored up for the future.