Monday, October 26, 2009

Tuesday 10/27/09 - "THE PAIN OF THAT MAGIC MOMENT"


I look back on the moment I awoke from my last drunk after trying for some time to get sober and stay sober. I remember when I finally found total surrender. There was magic, mystery, and miracle in that moment, but it came wrapped in an incredible amount of spiritual, emotional, mental, and physical pain. It was only after the passage of time that I was able to identify the magic.

I never would have guessed that it would turn out to be the best moment of my life, but that is exactly what happened. From that point of personal destruction came the willingness necessary to admit the emptiness of my life and to ask for help to change. It was so painful, but that pain eventually passed.

I can think now of personal experiences where pain has brought forth blessings. The most vivid, of course, is the birth of my two children. Out of the ordeal of childbirth came the beauty of two wonderful lives.

Nature provides wonderful examples of this same thing. At an Al-Anon meeting Sunday the discussion included how difficult and often hurtful situations can lead to a better life. A lady shared that she lived in Miami when Hurricane Andrew devastated the area. She said that new, lush, and even more beautiful vegetation has grown in that hurricane's wake.

I watch the mental anguish and ego deflation of the newcomer to Alcoholics Anonymous and remember my own. I try to pass on to them that out of this horrible pain grows a new and beautiful life for those who work the AA program. We need always share our experience, strength, and hope to lend hope to those who feel hopeless. It works. One alcoholic talking to another alcoholic can cast light into someone's dark life.

I believe the following:
"And we know that all things work together for good, to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose."
(Romans 8:28)

God bless and prayers for you all,

Prayer Girl


Anonymous said...

Hello PG, I love this post. I loved how you referred to the birth of children being painful and how such wonderful blessings came from that pain. I so agree. I remember after my first child, my son was born, I called mother back home and said Never again. her words mixed with laughter were, it is the most wonderful pain God will make you feel, it is pain that will erase very quickly, and she was right.
I know sometimes good comes out of bad and we have to suffer at times to find the good. I guess that is how Jesus did it for us.

Shadow said...

pain that brings pleasure, aaaaaah

Just Be Real said...

PG this was so beautiful and touching. Oh the goosebumps. Blessings to you dear one.

DreamDancer said...

PG, I recalled the beautiful moments my children were born out of my pain. I would like to also add that from my pain, often Wisdom was born. Blessings, dear heart.

Syd said...

Thanks PG. I can truly relate to how painful situations lead to a better life, like what I'm living now.

Andrea said...

Thank you so very much for sharing how GOD brought good out of the bad in your life. You have an amazing testimony and GOD will powerfully use you for the rest of your life.

Blessings and prayers, andrea

Dulce said...

This is remarkable...I worry when I think how my little one will get on in the future. Better not think about it...but just trust life...
The photo you've chosen for this post is delightful.
Great post!

wolfie185 said...

Amen PG Amen

Thanks for sharing your experience, strength and hope with us once again.

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