Wednesday, November 12, 2008

"TOO POOPED TO POP"


"TOO POOPED TO POP"

Today I'm popping, but last night I was just "too pooped to pop". I tried to "pop out" a blog, but there was no way. The mind and body were turned into the "off" position.

My day started yesterday with a "before an Alanon meeting" meeting with a sponsee to go over step 9. When we finished and before the meeting started, I told her about my right thumb joint pain I've had for a year. (It's pretty painful at times, but manageable.) This girl knows deep tissue massage - does it for a living, probed around at the underlying muscle and asked if I had ever had my "muscle released". I didn't even know what that meant so of course the answer was "no". She proceeded to work on my thumb till the meeting began. It was painful, but I remember having physical therapy for a frozen shoulder - that was also painful, but did the trick.

The meeting was great as it always is. The format is a discussion based on a selected reading from "Opening our Hearts, Transforming our Losses" (Alanon literature). The topic was on a section titled, "Coping with a multitude of feelings" (p. 118). It begins with, "At times we may find ourselves wishing we could escape the intensity of our emotions. We may have moments in our grief where we try to convince ourselves that life was easier before recovery, when we either denied or minimized what was happening to us. Now that we have opened our hearts to experience our feelings, we realize that we can't remain the same. This is both one of the gifts and hardships of feeling with an open heart."

Since the day I finally got sober, I have never thought for a second that life was easier before recovery, but I guard always against denial and minimizing my feelings or situations. In my drinking life, those were my old methods of coping. I have mentally placed a skull and crossbones over the image of a bottle of alcohol AND over the word "denial".

After the meeting, my sponsee and I went out to lunch. We went to a place called Food and Thought. It's a little natural foods grocery store with a little restaurant. Great food. I had been wanting to go there for a while. I had mahi-mahi with mango salsa and black beans - wonderful!

I had an afternoon appointment to meet with a trainer and learn about the Wellness center I joined last week. I spent about an hour learning about the machines, the activities available, and working out a program for myself. Now I just need to stay motivated and go at least 3 times a week.

(By the way, my thumb is recovering from yesterday so it's not real happy with my typing this blog.)

By the time I got home, I was pretty pooped. Spent time soaking my hand in Epsom salts and then alternating heat and cold. Dinner was next and then my feeble attempt at a blog.

Long story short, there is some popping going on this morning - Thank God!

Love you all,
Prayer Girl

6 comments:

Kristin H. said...

Glad to see you were able to "pop" one out :)

Shadow said...

i don't even want to say it, much less think it, but PAIN BRINGS RELEASE. thank YOU!

Progress, Not Perfection said...

Seems you had a busy day. I love that, especially when its busy with things I want to do.

Peace and Serenity and Happy Hump Day!

Kristen

Cat said...

Hope that thumb feels better soon - I am having physical therapy for a should (frozen) starting this Friday - so knowing it is painful is scarin me a bit!

Cat

Syd said...

I hope that your thumb gets better. I'm in PT as well for the rotator cuff. Have a good Wednesday.

Just Another Sober Guy said...

Good stuff! Keep poppin' back!