99.9999% of everything I say or write I have heard from someone else; either in a meeting, in a social setting, or read somewhere. Nothing is uniquely my own idea.
However when I wrote about boundaries with soft edges, I had never heard that before. As far as I know it belongs in that .0001% category. If it has been said before I haven't heard it.
Today in my home group Al-Anon meeting as I was listening to the lead and to members sharing another thought entered my mind that I have never heard before. We were discussing the reading of March 12th, p. 72 in "Hope for Today". The sentence that caught my attention was "...a negative attitude invites self-pity and discontent."
Until I found recovery I lived in negativity and self-pity that nearly drowned me. I swam in a tumultuous sea of depression. I am an alcoholic and I qualify for membership in Al-Anon having grown up with an alcoholic brother and then being married to an active alcoholic for nearly 20 years.
The thought that I had and shared in the meeting was this:
The alcoholic says, "Poor me, poor me, pour me a drink."
The Al-Anoner says, "Poor me, poor me, pour me a cup of self-pity."
Thank God I don't have to live that way anymore. Either cup full whether of alcohol or self-pity holds the power to kill me. Today I know how to use the power of prayer and all the other tools of the programs to move out of negative thinking and the resulting self-pity. I no longer have to pour a drink or a cup of self-pity.
Thank you God.
(Photo credit: My Cup of Phantomhive by Taymeho@deviantart.com)