Thursday, October 21, 2010

Thursday 10/21/10 - "DIRTY LAUNDRY"

"DIRTY LAUNDRY"

From the beginning of my blog my intention was to carry a message of hope. I wanted to share with others what I learned when I thought I was hopeless. When I hit my bottom in alcoholism I felt I was beyond all help and all possibility of saving. I discovered at that time a little seed of hope I didn't know was possible to have, buried within me, and it brought me through that horrific time.

The hope I discovered in me when God intervened and saved me from my alcoholism has remained with me these 25 years since I got sober. I have been through many difficult times in those years and many wonderful, beautiful times as well.

There are times when our "dirty laundry" overflows the basket of our life. I was taught as a child not to "air the family's dirty laundry". I believe it is very important to air our dirty laundry with trusted friends and helpers God puts in our lives. I think that the adage to not air our laundry "in public" is spiritually sound. It is my belief that if we air our troubles publicly it can interfere with whatever God's will for the situation and those involved in it is.

Right now my dirty laundry basket is overflowing and God is telling me to be very cautious about blogging. First of all, I wish for my blog, if it continues, to be that message of hope in a world where so many experience hopelessness. Second, I do not wish my laundry to spill out publicly and spoil God's plan, whatever that may be.

I may stop blogging for a while. I may stop blogging forever. I am turning this decision over to God. In all things, even when I am filled with fear and anxiety, I try to listen for that still small voice that leads and directs me. That voice is why I posted a Theme Thursday blog last night and about an hour later took it down. This was the blog I needed to post instead.

I need your prayers. Those I love need your prayers.

Till whenever......

Prayer Girl



20 comments:

Syd said...

I just hope that you will be okay. I don't like the idea of airing dirty laundry either. That needs to be between me, those I love and God. Take care and come back when you feel good about it.

Brian Miller said...

you got them PG...prayers up...and i hope (selfishly) that you do not stop, if nothing else to see the continued journey through this...

Enchanted Oak said...

My friend, I've noticed that you aren't talking about your personal experiences lately. I also remember several times over the past year, since I started blogging and found your blog, when something you said gave me hope.

You and those you love have my prayers for God's guidance, harmony, strength and peace. My selfish hope is that you continue to carry your message of hope here and be part of my life. May your journey be blessed.

Barb said...

Sometimes we just need a break from these bloggy waters. If you need it, take it. I have a feeling you'll find your way back.

Wanda's Wings said...

I will pray for you my friend. You have helped me so much in one of the most difficult years of my life. Remember your blogging friend are here to support you if we can. You do what you feel is best. May God hold you is His precious arm.

Marcia said...

Prayers for you.

McCaffery said...

Prayer Girl, my prayers are with you. I hope everything turns out ok, whatever it is. xoxo...I hope you come back at some point.

G-Man said...

PG....
Your blog is and has been a haven of peace and love.
We all feel very comfortable here.
We look foreward to you shedding your demons and getting on with your life.
Keep quiet...Hold your head high, keep praying.
have a Kick Ass week-End....G

Jannie Funster said...

Shoot, I think I may have just not posted the comment I wrote.

Let me start again.

You are a beautiful giving soul. I admire you for seeking.

Seek and ye shall find.

And know that you are deeply loved by many, including me.

Xo

Jess Mistress of Mischief said...

Love you Anna, still praying and will continue to do so!

Mary LA said...

Anna please take care and I hope you are able to keep blogging here.

Jingle said...

best wishes.
u have been an inspiration to me for a long time.
relax, shift your attention to something else for a day or two.
you will be refreshed in no time.

izzy said...

I surprise myself sometimes
" Airing " something that rumbles,
(in fear and trembling) Last night
I " Ratted on my disease".Admittedly
it was in a meeting- but I have not
belched that way in a while. It
definitely felt risky. I would not call it dirty laundry- more like getting a secret out. And yet, it was not totally a secret...I had shared well enough with my inner circle. This was top of the pile ( my laundrey gets stuck in 2 week cycles lately)The basket was brimming! Yes- we must use
caution. But in retrospect, the pile was pre-sorted.It had been prayed about, turned over, discussed-
walked through.I simply held it up, to show my natural reticence that it was safe to peel back this layer... It payed off.
There is a fine line in what you are saying. The internet is a whole different ballgame...However- Hope
is an extremely important factor.
So is truth.I am working to trust my heart more. Blessings.

Akannie said...

Sweet Anna...prayers and much love...you have my email, NO ??

Love you.

Just Be Real said...

PG thank you for sharing your pain here. Praying for you dear one. Blessings.

Hap Joy Free said...

I am thinking of you, dear Anna,,,,,I hope your pain is lessened, know that you are loved by so many....especially me.

xoxo

Christina

♥ Boomer ♥ said...

I stepped out of blogging for quite some time, and am slowly, timidly, humbly testing the waters again. I hope and pray that all is well with you. You were always there for me, and I am here for you.

bettyl said...

Do what you know you should do, my friend. The blog world will still be here when and if you ever come back.

Scott said...

be well, prayer girl, I will keep you in mind in my petitions to God.

I've stumbled with the very same blogging issues in my time blogging. I know you'll come to peace with this.

Mike Golch said...

I have been a bad man by not leaving a commment before this.Find Peace,and we will be here when you return.