Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Thursday 5/13/10 - "SHEPHERD ME, O GOD"

SHEPHERD ME, O GOD


Shepherd me, O God,
beyond my wants,
beyond my fears,
from death into life.

listen here:

Life can take us into waters that seem sure to drown us. Sometimes life's challenges seem like a fire that will surely burn us to ashes. We feel weak, fearful, unsure, lost, abandoned. Those of us who have walked through these dark places to the other side are called to be a beckoning beacon of light for those finding themselves on a frightening journey.

My alcoholism brought me to a place of despair and hopelessness. Many of the blogs I read are written by people who have also experienced days and nights of darkness - alcoholism, drug addiction, abuse. This may sound melodramatic, but for those of us who have been there, it is no exaggeration. We were trapped in situations that no matter what we thought, did, or said, we were unable to escape.

God is the source of my hope and the power that brought me slowly and gently out of the pit of Hell and into light and health. As He led me I was often unaware at the time of his gentle guidance, but in the retrospect of many years I can now see some of the ways He was there. I have learned that most of the time I do not know what is best for me, but God always knows what is best. The moment I surrendered my illusion of power over alcohol or much of anything else, realized how desperately I needed help, and handed the entirety of my life over to a power greater than myself, He was able to do for me what I was unable to do for myself.

God is my great and gentle "Shepherd". He led me to Alcoholics Anonymous where I found sobriety. He has led me into deeper and deeper levels of sobriety and given me the grace to be able to share some of what He has given me with others. I share my faith and trust as I share my experience, strength, and hope. I know many who are struggling - sponsees, friends, bloggers. I write this blog for them. There is hope. It is possible to navigate the deep waters without drowning and to emerge from the flames unscathed. I hope this blog will bring a measure of comfort.

Recently I have had trouble sitting down and writing a blog. A dear sponsee, L, told me this morning she looks often for my next blog to lift her spirit. I got motivated.

L finds herself in a most difficult time and being led to take steps that will be some of the most painful of her life. I love her and this blog is for her and the many others in deeply troubling circumstances. God is shepherding her, shepherding all of us out of the darkness and into the radiance of the light if we ask Him.


God bless L and all of my blogger friends.

Prayer Girl

(Photo credits: On the Waters of Bleached Rock by pastseeker@deviantart.com)

10 comments:

clean and crazy said...

i too have been terrible at finding time to sit and write or read, I am glad i had time today...

Brian Miller said...

you never know whose life you will touch with your words...

Akannie said...

A great post of hope and comfort...I too have had the lack of time for reading or posting lately and I do miss it, and I have missed you, dear Anna...

You always help ground me, and I read here but don't always comment, and always come away feeling fed.


Love to you and yours...

Jingle said...

how precious your words are,
enjoy a graceful Thursday!

Syd said...

Thanks for writing this. It was a rough day yesterday for me, but I have found myself again through God's grace.

Hope said...

I love that song. I have it on my work computer and listen to it when I need some comfort.

Anonymous said...

I can now see the light... and I am so grateful to God that he put you in my life to help guide me to the other side. Your a gift to everyone who is blessed to read your blog. Lots of love,L

steveroni said...

That song haunts me--it's like a sequel to the poem HOUND OF HEAVEN (Francis Thompson), my favorite of FAVORITES

steveroni said...

HEY, I didn't finish! Your writing here really displays who you are. Always helping the others with deep and serious problems, your own are limited.

Funny, we get so busy "working with" another, that we forget ourselves. It REALLY happens that way--like they have been telling me all those years

GOOD blog, PG
Love!

Andrew said...

Thanks Anna. I, too have been busy and am just now getting caught up on my blogs.

And God Bless you Dear Heart.